Exactly this. I’m fortunate enough that the skills I’m good at have a lot of demand at the moment, but people I know that are more hard working than I am and very talented, struggle to get by just because their job for some reason is considered less worthy to pay for.
Wanting to maintain this rotten system is the purest form of greed.
I’m not a psychologist but judging from what you say, you seem to be at the phase of acceptance.
If you haven’t and still can, you should apologise to whoever you hurt, even if that’s yourself.
Recognise what led you there, what where your thoughts and feelings that made you do it. Then try your hardest not to do it again.
Don’t beat yourself up over it, everyone makes mistakes, big and small.
Let the mistake change you for the better, mistakes are the best and most effective teachers if you decide to listen to them.
Move on, but make sure to understand and forgive yourself and to let the mistake improve you.