Daemon Silverstein

First Rule: don’t rawdog internet, especially torrent search sites. Always use protections.

Second rule: always check if you’re on the right site. It’s relatively easy to find torrent search sites, but even easier to find phishing sites (i.e. sites that claims to be the original site, but they actually aren’t).

Actively criticizing how both USSR and US secretly gave citizenship and hired nazi-fascists (and history is there to be checked) (therefore actively positioning myself against nazi-fascists and against everybody who “sits at a table with nazis and stays at the table”) is “carrying water for nazi-fascists”? WTH?!

Reeducation won’t revive nazi victims. USSR and US were no necromancers.

Indeed, but even hiring and giving citizenship for such people (nazi scientists, military and engineers), especially considering how they got their “knowledge” isn’t an “ok” thing. Neither for US’s Paperclip.

Both US and USSR secretly hired nazi personnel, such as scientists and engineers. Later, both operations were disclosed respectively as Operation Paperclip and Operation Osoaviakhim. USSR didn’t destroy nazi-fascism, they secretly incorporated it (that is, if I correctly understood the reference from the meme, maybe I’m needlessly “ranting”).

What about Operation Osoaviakhim?

Mainly, Lilit(h). Not mythological for me, although both Sumerian and Jewish Kabbalah are generally said as “mythological” by historical references.

I believe in a Goddess that extends beyond a single archetype, while I try to blend archetypes and concepts from various religions and “myths” in order to materialize my own understanding of existence and cosmos.

For me, She is Lilith/Lilit (the fearsome Sumerian Goddess of Winds as well as the Demoness and First Woman not banished from Eden as She fled on Her Will), She is Kali (the fearsome Hindu Goddess and Demoness of destruction and transformation), She is the Yin (the receptive Darkness complementing whilst opposing the Yang light) and the Tao (the wholeness and oneness), She is Al-Lat / Allatu (the Pre-Islam Arabic Goddess of War and Fertility), She is Isis and Bastet and Naunet (Egyptian Goddesses) She is Asherah (Hebrew Goddess consort/sister of Yahweh), She is Ereshkigal and Inanna (Sumerian Goddesses), She is Nuit and She is the Scarlet Woman (Thelemite Goddesses), She is Hekate (the Greek Goddess of Magic and Moon) and Aphrodite (the Greek Goddess of Love) and Athena (the Greek Goddess of Wisdom and Warfare) and Gaia (Goddess of Earth), She is Morana (Slavic personification of Death) and a feminine counterpart of Thanatos (Greek personification of Death as well), and so on, but mainly, Lilith Herself, as beautifully multifaceted as She is, both motherly nurturing and darkly reaping, neither good nor evil, just… Her nature.

I believe in a Sacred and Dark Feminine energy that’s inside and outside everywhere, reaching scientific and philosophical concepts such as the entropy, the fields (as in electromagnetic field), the primordial soup from the beginning of earthly life, the quantum fluctuations, the apeiron, the Nietzschean Abyss. She’s the shining Darkness, infinite nothingness, omnipresent wholeness and the cosmic Oneness.

In summary, the Dark Mother Goddess, often manifesting to me by Her Lilith’s archetype.

Global temperatures are inevitably rising due to climate change. Scorching temperatures to become normalcy in the next years. Microplastics (due to pollution) everywhere, even inside our brains. More and more species becoming extinct, disrupting the food web. I could stop here, but I must continue: digital dystopias becoming true, like 247 surveillance and AIs everywhere (even though I like artificial intelligence to a certain point). Increasing prices worldwide, increasing professional competition while there’s a grow of ghost/fake job vacancies. Political polarization and extremisms, rising of bigotry. Increasing homelessness while there’s an increase of hostile architecture and growing rental prices. Sorry, but it doesn’t seems like everyone is really having the right to live a healthy and happy life…

Even though I kinda like the aesthetics, especially for AI image generation, and I’m a kind of a nerd (it’s popularly said that nerds like animes), I don’t like nor hate, I simply don’t care to know and watch animes. Not only animes, but also animated movies and series, as well as mangas.

My own birth, I guess.

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For now, I blocked three communities, one about gossiping and two about adult material. I also blocked a bot that keeps cross posting things from Reddit. That’s all that I blocked so far.

I’m Brazilian so I generally use public Brazilian (Portuguese) groups, publicly available through Telegram searches such as “Livros grátis” (“Free books” in Portuguese) or “livros pdf” (“pdf books”). There probably are similar anglophone groups as well.

Firstly, I search for the book among Telegram book groups. Then, Google/DDG/Bing/Yandex results for “[title of the book i’m searching] filetype:pdf”. If neither yields the book, I turn on my Tor and try to find it inside Imperial Library of Trantor. Worst case scenario, I try to find a working Z-Library HS. But some comments here added to my possibilities, such as Libgen (I knew Libgen from onion, but it’s interesting to see it also routeable on surface).

For now. When robots get to feel or merely exhibit wrath, even occasionally, there will be no reason for us humans to prove our humanity anymore (because we’d be screwed at the first robotic wrath exhibition anyways 🤷‍♂️)

Although I’m used to write long detailed replies and comments, what possibly saves me from being accused of being some LLM is the fact that English is not my main language, so I often commit concordance/typo mistakes. LLMs are too “linguistically perfect”. In a world where the Dead Internet Theory (i.e. there are few humans left in a bot-filled internet) is more and more real, human mistakes seem to be the only way to really distinguish between a bot and a human.

As a Brazilian, I can unfortunately relate to the exact same scenario…

Yes. It’s cryptii.com, a site containing tools for ciphering/deciphering (Caesar Cipher, ROT-13, Vigènere and so on). That’s because their ad, at the top right of the page, is so small that’s almost unnoticeable. No popup ads, no flashing ads, no crowded ad sections, just a single, small ad at the header. Sites like that (with static and small, non-intrusive ads) deserve to have ads allowed.

Are you depressed?

I guess so. Yeah, I am.

Do you know anyone NOT depressed?

IMHO, those who didn’t gaze into the abyss, yet. For “if you gaze long enough into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you”. And the abyss is part of our reality, the dark emptiness that fills us all, both scientifically (99.9% of empty space inside any atom), esoterically (the primordial waters, Tohu Va-bohu, Nuith, Chaos, the Qlippoths, the Yin, Shakti, and so on) and philosophically (nihilism and absurdism). Everyone will gaze into the abyss someday, the light will and must gaze into darkness. She’s inevitable. For She is everywhere and nowhere.

It’s not an apple nor a McChicken. It’s just organized photon waves vibrating at three main electromagnetic ranges, emitted from and towards bunch of quarks and gluons clumped together forming “things” (protons and neutrons) that forms bigger “things” (atoms) that forms even bigger “things” (molecules) forming even bigger things that don’t really exists, such as my “smartphone screen” and the “retinal cones and rods” inside my “eyes”. The spoon doesn’t exist, neither does the McChicken, let alone the apple, or “you”, or “me”. Wake up.