Yea it is still photography but I took a looong break. I got into tattooing and that took all my time so. After our recent and bitter breakup, I’m back to more forgiving mediums including photography. And I’m loving it tbh. Being able to make a mistake is a nice thing. So I draw stuff, do embroidery, sew formless weird clothes, and take photos from my house.

I can go with either of these but do tell me about the makeshift studio. I once attempted a makeshift darkroom. Did not go as planned. And the BBQ - you’re doing it outside right? Smoking stuff is my weak spot but I live in a flat so I can’t talk by experince but I’d smoke and BBQ the hell out of everything if I could.

Holy shit. I was weird too. I still am. I feel like I’m pretending to be normal 24/7. I observe people’s behaviors in an environment, take an average and just go with that. The only time I am genuinely myself are the times when I’m heavily drunk. Which is tempting but knowing that’s how alcoholism begins I don’t do that either. Weirdly, when I’m not drunk and try to be myself, I offend people or get offended. Just put my foot in my mouth somehow.

Yeah, that realization helped a bit, when my friend was in a rut and I had to spend hours just to convince her to let me help, it dawned on me. I do this as well. I shouldn’t. It still feels really hard to accept help.

Thanks for the insightful response. I have a question and I don’t want to offend you. I talk to people online, and lurk autism subs, and I relate to so many things. Like you just said, I tend to read neutral expressions as negative. If that’s a symptom, then I have it, if not we’re awfully similar. I have never been the one to armchair diagnose myself over the internet but I don’t know what kind of conversation I should have with a healthcare professional. I don’t know if it’s ok to just go “hey, I suspect I am on the spectrum.” Were you diagnosed when you were an adult and how did the process go? Thanks in advance.

Me again. I’m in a similar boat, I understand when you say you need an engaging conversation with someone. If you’re okay with having this conversation online I would be up for it because satan knows I need one as well. That is of course if what I can offer meets what you consider as engaging conversation.

Social skills tend to decline unfortunately. The memory I told in this thread, that level of social skill is now so far away from me it feels like she’s a different person. In a sense she is, it happened abt 10 years ago, but you get it. My social skills suck ass right now. I can’t seem to talk to someone and get my point across without offending them or being offended myself. So a conversation might be a nice social skill honer for two people who kinda need it, about anything and everything. Doesn’t matter about what really. So if you’d like to… talk, to me, let me know.

You’re welcome!

When I was younger I’d take my camera and just walk the streets of the city alone. One day I saw police gathering around. Thinking that I could take some interesting shots at where they were headed, I followed them. After a while I realized there were another girl following them. We said hi and I asked her what she was doing. She said she saw the police and thought they were up to something, so she followed them. Lol.

The police, unlike usual, ended up not doing anything remotely interesting, so we headed to a tea house, spent about 3 hours talking. We talked about pretty much anything knowing that we would never see each other again. It was kinda weird but really liberating to talk to someone when you don’t really care what they think of you. We talked about life, universe, art, music, families, anything and everything. The weird thing is she was a lot like me. And I don’t meet a lot of people who are so similar to me. Even physically, she looked like a whiter version of me, and she dressed like how I would dress if I wasn’t broke. We had the same taste in music and all. I only had money for two cups of tea and busfare, so after our teas we said goodbye, parted and I never saw her again.

I didn’t ask for a contact number and she didn’t either. I knew, and she knew, the “charm” of these three hours depended on the fact that it was never to happen again. But I know that I knew her better than anyone in her life, just like she knew me. For three hours only.

Probably the most interesting conversation I will ever have

I’m actively trying to accept myself. I never did, and never really respected my own views & rules regarding life. I loved people more than I loved myself, so I let them walk over me & called it love. I can have standards and I don’t have to be around something that I don’t like. It sounds simple but it really isn’t easy to do for me.

Bullet for my Valentine/Trivium. I don’t know if they’re widely disliked but they’re too teenage-y for boomer metalheads, too metal for EDM/house/trance people, and too mainstream for experimental people so I’ve never got a positive response when I mentioned them. Might as well mentioned Pussycat Dolls.

Which I love.

This is good shit

I had a science book explaining bodily functions and all. They basically drew a bunch of tiny people operating the human body. Reproduction section was the same, which showed a male structure and female structure. I understood the mechanics but never really knew where this hole was in the body. That came in later.

Blueberry

If he has infinite time and can’t be hurt at all I think why not. If we assume one discovery or invention takes one lifetime, and some lifetimes don’t produce inventions or discoveries because he’s working alone, he’ll still have time to gain back all the knowledge and more. Especially if he’s consciously working towards it and since he will at some point discover ways to archive information his knowledge doesn’t have to fade away. He can do pretty much anything that science allows because well he has infinite time. People seem to be stuck on collectivity but we have to depend on collective information and culture because we are mortal beings. We wouldn’t have a way to remember what previous members of society thought or did if they didn’t leave any data. It could be a different story if we experienced it ourselves

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The fact that none of this was planned and executed well is going to weight on the outcome way more than the panicky inhumane greed they’re showing. People might not care about the injustice but systems WILL fail if not set properly. That’s why people think like 2 seconds ahead. Spez can’t do that so he’s doomed to fail at some point. The whole snowball thing is really hard to predict

Probably some moments during protests. Once I ducked to avoid a gas flying straight to my face. Time slowed and all that. Jumped behind a tree to avoid an angry anti-protester who was actively trying to run people over. Missed plastic bullets by mere centimeters etc. Looking back, I wouldn’t recommend a low reflex person to protest.