Sombyr

Meanwhile I’m too autistic to tell when they AREN’T happening, and just keep talking until somebody respectfully tells me to shut up an take my turn.

https://youtu.be/K3x8Tm7urfk?si=-_GUHpbEJN0BPash

It’s still a gradual buildup for me, and there are little pauses every time it starts over, but if I don’t have those little pauses, I get overstimulated too much and the nerves just kinda shut off for a couple minutes. There’s always an intense shock of pleasure too when it starts over, that fades away really fast, but every time it starts over again the shock is more intense than the previous time, until eventually, one of those shocks is an orgasm. I can technically have one on the lowest settings of sustained vibration too, but it’s not intense enough to give me a satisfying orgasm. The settings that just pulse regularly also sometimes work, but I prefer to have at least a second or two with the thing going full blast just because it feels good, so that’s why I use the “Morse code” setting instead. That way I get the full intensity, along with the little interruptions that prevent me from getting overstimulated.

There are people who don’t like that? Huh. That’s the only setting that works for me. Every other setting is too regular so I go numb and just stop feeling it after like 5 seconds.

Going through this right now. Don’t enjoy playing single player games much. Only usually enjoy multi-player games if I’m playing with my wife. I’m just letting it happen tbh.

Getting into tabletop games and collecting instead. Unlike video games, tabletop games come with all sorts of cool knickknacks, especially war games, and I’m finding getting to collect them and then play with the cool new things holds my interest better nowadays. Feels like it scratches the same itch as installing a thousand new mods into video games then playing for a few hours before loading it up with even more mods, but instead of mods it’s new little dudes and I get to assemble and paint them.

Somebody filled a trash bag full of sharp objects they were planning on throwing out, then decided “I can’t just throw a bag of loose sharp objects in the dumpster. Oh, I know the perfect place for this! Dead center of the living room floor.” I stepped on it in the pitch black of the night. Luckily I only hit the edge so I only injured a single toe, but I straight up ripped the flesh nearly from the bone of it. Even stupider, I didn’t go to the hospital for it. At least until I had an appointment for something else anyway, at which point they saw it and immediately made me go to another doctor to get it addressed.