Unfortunately most people endeavor to make other people’s journey a living hell for their own enjoyment.

Yeah, for me that would be all of the stories. And none of them are funny. That’s why I stopped talking to people once I turned 18.

Why is this the first time I’ve seen a mention of Friendica?

That’s just how the capitalists want you to think - that you committed a crime by not giving capitalists money.

The capitalists want you to think that all money is their money, and that you are committing a crime by getting in the way of their money.

Then I don’t wanna be right.

“See, when a daddy tomato and a mommy tomato love each other very much…”

If you don’t have the strength to get up, I get it. It’s understandable.

It’s not about a lack of “strength” - or anything else I lack. Quit making it about “my failure”. It’s about humanity not deserving such regard. Until it accepts its punishment and changes how it behaves, it deserves nothing. Giving them anything before they change their behavior only teaches them to continue to behave badly. One cannot take as a precept that human beings have some internal “morality” that they won’t just ignore.

I can attest that I won’t deliberately hurt anyone.

I know there are tolerant people because I talk to a few regularly, and because I do my best to be one myself.

No, you cannot. They will not tolerate me, and when faced with me, you will not tolerate me. You will regard me just as you regard the dog that bit you - with fear and anger at its audacity.

I don’t know what you’ve tried

I’ve tried everything - including EMDR. I have no in-tact memories - my brain ripped them all apart trying to find patterns in people’s random, irrational behavior. It destroyed them because there were no patterns - you people are just fucking nuts, wallowing in your emotions.

I get the feeling you recognize that I’m not the same person who hurt you, but if not, please try to remember that each person is unique.

You assholes make a point of trying to be exactly like each other - because you motherfuckers try to exterminate anyone not exactly like you. The whole goddamned problem is your world-wide obsession with fearing and hating difference. You all would rather cut out any differences in yourselves with a hatchet than be different from one another - because you all know you’d gladly swing a hatchet into anyone you found different. Again, genocides are waged against kinsfolk - they’re waged against the “other”.

You, the individual, are not different from anyone else - you wouldn’t still exist if you were. What makes you so special that they would let you live after killing off so many “others”?

If you go to a bar or a crowded public park and just say “hello” in a somewhat positive tone to a few people, I bet you’ll get a range of responses.

That is exactly what I did my entire childhood, and I only ever got one response - mocking derision or violence. Don’t hand me this “range of responses” bullshit - you people have neither the cognitive ability nor the courage to respond in any way the person beside you didn’t also respond. No one was “open to a conversation” - they all beat me and called me every name they could think of.

Face the fact that you are all delusional about the monsters you really are. You tell yourselves comforting lies about yourselves so you can continue to abuse people for enjoyment without interruption of said enjoyment. That’s who you are; that’s what the human race is. Quit fighting the facts and just admit it to yourselves. No one is “unique” - you motherfuckers have been in a war against “unique” since you evolved from lemurs.

“Well, it was a small town when I was done with it. Fit inside this little urn…”

it doesn’t matter what any singular person thinks about you.

This is only true in the sense that it’s the masses who mindlessly believe what manipulators tell them that are the real threat. They become mindless, raging mobs who will slaughter whoever they’re told to slaughter without hesitation or thought. That’s the real problem. The average person can be led by the nose as if they were cattle by anyone amoral enough to mislead.

There are people out there who do their best to understand and accept you as you are, without using what they learned to make half-assed guesses about the rest of who you are.

No they don’t. Stop lying to me.

They may be few and far between

Then by definition they are ineffective and therefore don’t count. The only people who matter are those who can crush the angry mobs described above. A single person will be drawn and quartered by the above as soon as they are discovered.

I know they exist.

PROVE IT!!!

Drag their bodies before me!

I’m sick and tired of assholes like you asserting bullshit you can’t prove. You have no right to simply assume shit you can’t prove yourself. If you want me to believe your horseshit, then hunt these people down yourself, drag them to me via meathooks, and bodily prove their existence. I will never simply believe what anyone tells me simply because “they said so”.

As soon as you start looking for those who accept you instead of trying to be accepted by those who don’t, you’ll be on a better course.

I’ve done that for FIFTY YEARS and found exactly NO ONE!!! This is why know you’re a liar. You’re just another asshole trying to pin the blame on me for your abusiveness, saying I haven’t done enough to find people who don’t exist.

And remember, parents, old friends, etc. who don’t necessarily get you too well aren’t necessarily trying to be cruel, but you may never have quite the relationship with them you wish you could.

My parents built a shed for the sole purpose of tying me to a chair and beating me with phonebooks to torture me. I don’t “not have quite the relationship with them you wish you could” - you motherfuckers methodically torture me and try to destroy my free will because you all assert I’m a slave object to be commanded and obey you without question. Don’t bullshit me with this “relationship” nonsense - you want me either obedient or dead; nothing else is acceptable to any of you. Quit pretending you’re any less of a monster than you are.

And if you feel like you don’t belong, maybe you don’t, and maybe that’s okay.

How is it okay when you motherfuckers will do anything to kill the people who “don’t belong?” If you bastards are willing to murder millions of people who “don’t belong” in your genocides, it’s clear than belonging is an absolute necessity for survival. Either I “belong” or everyone else is an existential threat.

You haven’t lost until the last time you give up on finding them.

Fuck you. I already gave up on every finding them - the fact that you assholes were willing to inflict PTSD on a child proved beyond a shadow of doubt how evil the human species was. It’s literally impossible for humanity to be any good and yet allow children to have PTSD inflicted on them. Humanity has to make a choice - and it chose its own pleasure at the cost of child trauma. That choice forever damned it; the human species is irredeemable and will drive itself to extinction through making its children non-viable through trauma.

But I didn’t “lose” - you motherfuckers failed me. You failed every child you let get abused. That blame does NOT fall on me - that falls on every person who abuses me, even if the form of abuse is neglect.

Every narcissist thinks they’re different. They only makes themselves more similar to each other than normal people would be.

Of course it’s on purpose - everything narcissists do, they do to force you to interact with them. Because ignoring them is exactly what they hate.

It never gets better.

People’s hatred of the other is a religion to them. They define themselves by who they dehumanize. They will never stop dehumanizing you because they need to do so to cope with their own self-hatred.

No one will ever accept you, because accepting you, in their own twisted minds, is killing themselves.

You didn’t read the whole thing.

Also, that only applies to those in their “in-groups” - people are hard-wired to kill everyone outside their in-groups.

I’m from California, jackass.

The top picture is, and will always be, the whole of humanity. Don’t fool yourself.

It doesn’t matter how you approach the situation. Other people aren’t going to let your behavior affect their decisions.

You’re expecting perfection from others but can’t meet that expectation yourself.

Welcome to dealing with the human species. You’re lucky they’re not beating you for not living up to their unrealistic and hypocritical expectations.

What makes you think “excuse me” will work?

You have too much faith in humanity.

I feel like I’m only slightly shifted, but everyone else accuses me of being in the neighbor’s yard.

My condolences. I hope you feel better.